Currently as an update…

What am I currently doing?

Everything and nothing. Do you ever get to that stage where you just are stalled because you’re not sure what you really want to do. You have ideas, mood boards, lists, and a gigantic map that highlights your next steps but you’ve kind of stalled and have pulled over while you try to figure it all out.

I’m stalled.

So, while I try to figure out my steps I will update you with my currently list.

Reading: I just started Beauty Queens by Libba Bray. I’m barely started but already I am loving the satire. It has been described as the female version of Lord of the Flies and, it may well be, but I am loving the commentary that it provides. Imagine a plane full of wannabe beauty queens crash landing on a “deserted” island… and that’s all I’m going to leave you with.

Playing: Wordscapes and Fallout 4. The first one is just a free game on the app store where you get a circle of letters and you have to make words out of the letters and they fit into the crossword type puzzle at the top. And Fallout 4 currently has been going round in circles. I just sided with the Railroad for the time being before I plan to fully side with the Minutemen… well, I think that’s my plan. I died six times in a row last night trying to take out a Courser.

Watching: I’ve finally gotten around to watching Teen Wolf. So that has been playing in the background while I try to write. I’ve also just introduced my nieces to Stranger Things which has been fun. (If you haven’t watched it yet please get on top of it…)

Listening: I watched Matilda the Musical recently and have been listening to that soundtrack on repeat. Not gonna lie – loved “When I Grow Up” and “Revolting Children.”

Doing: Trying to figure out how to get my car back on the road… metaphorically…

So there we go. A quick update and hopefully some clarity will come eventually.

Peace and pancakes.

 

Why I loved Wonder Woman.

I will be the first to admit that I am not as knowledgeable about Wonder Woman as I am about Batman and that side of the DC universe. Of course I remember watching re-runs of the 1970s show and I loved watching the Justice League cartoons when I was younger and, although I know about her character and the basics of her story I never seemed to get as invested as I feel like I should. I guess seeing her as a background character more than an equal had a strange effect on me.

I’m righting that wrong, though.

Wonder Woman’s “cameo” in Batman vs Superman was the highlight for me and when I learned that they were making a Wonder Woman film I began to research into her history. The more I read the more excited I became. Of course there is so much to her history that I don’t know but I’m excited to find out.

Now, onto the review.

I. Loved. This. Film.

My mum loved this film. So far, all my friends who have seen it have loved it.

Here there be spoilers.

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Things I am not good at…

…regular blogging. I get all excited and then I forget things and then this happens… Then again, I’m not that good at being regular… well that could be TMI.

In order to motivate myself to write more and take more time for me I actually paid for a domain name and everything…now that I’ve actually invested money in blogging maybe I’ll actually do something with it. I mean, I have been blogging on and off for the last fifteen plus years so I may as well try to make it more official. Or at least make myself feel a little bit guilty about putting money into something and then leaving it to collect dust.

The next thing is to figure out what I really want to do with this blog. If you click on the about page you’ll see that I’ve made a separate blog for my teaching. Partially because I want something else that I can write about than just teaching. I mean, I love teaching but I am more than just a teacher. I need a proper outlet for my geeky endeavours, right?

So, I am toying around with a few ideas. Some along the lines of more reviews – films, novels, shows etc.

I want to have more of my Five Things lists as well.

If there are any other things that you would like me to write about let me know.

In the meantime you’ll notice that the layout will be changing over the next few weeks while I figure out how I want my blog to look. I’m just fussy – I’ve already spent most of this afternoon fart assing around with the layout and I’m still not happy.

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Of Tattoos and things…

You know how I talked about crossing things off your bucket list last post? Well, I crossed another thing off.

I got a new tattoo.

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Yep, it’s an origami stegosaur with a splash of water colour.

I now have three tattoos and this is the most visible one. I love it but it is also so new that I still haven’t really come to grips with the reality of it. (It’s on my left forearm in case you were wondering).

I’ve always loved tattoos but have always been apprehensive of getting them in overly visible places. However, I have been through a lot this year and I decided that I wanted to control the next visible change to my body. I have so many scars from various surgeries that I’ve had no choice in receiving (and I don’t regret them at all, let me state that up front right now) so I wanted the chance to control the next “scar” that I got. I mean, my scar from my gallbladder removal is shockingly huge… Not that I really need to justify why I got this… just wanted to explain some of my thought process…

So, I got a dinosaur. Those who know me, irl, know about my obsession with dinosaurs. Heck, I wanted to be a palaeontologist all the way through primary school and then most of high school. Unfortunately, money played a huge part in my decision to go to uni in New Zealand. No regrets though.

So, another thing crossed off the bucket list.

Also, I start a Post Grad Course next month. It’s all to do with Digital and Collaborative Learning.  It’s  done through Unitec and The Mind Lab. It also counts toward 1/3 of a Master’s Degree.

Not to mention that next month is NaNoWriMo. National Novel Writing Month – where the aim is to write 50 000 words in the month of November. I’m managed to successfully achieve this for the past five years.

So, all in all, I’m setting myself up for a busy few months. I’m looking forward to the positive changes.

Oh – and I’m still going with the whole #31daysofhorror – and it’s getting a little tedious but I am still loving it.

Until next time…peace and pancakes.

Also, question: Do you have any tattoos?

What goals are you setting yourself for the last two months of the year?

31 Days of Horror, Bullet Journaling and Stuff

Admittedly 2016 has not been a good year for me. There have been highlights – most notably San Diego Comic Con – which was so awesome. There are words but none of them are intelligible at this present moment.

But, generally, 2016 has been a ‘suckfest’ in numerous senses. I guess the gallbladder thing takes the cake and I’m still dealing with all that. You’d be surprised at what foods seem to hate me at present. (For those of you who can eat anything after your surgery I’m actually glad and happy for you. Unfortunately, some food goes through me faster than … well I’ll let you finish that off.) It’s been 17 weeks since the surgery and I’ve done a lot of traveling and teaching and thinking. Maybe a little too much in the way of thinking but that’s me.

Anyway, it’s October (seriously, where the hell did the year go) and now it’s heading into Spring (which soon means summer holidays but who’s counting anyway?)

On tumblr the Northern Hemisphere is going wild with it’s fall aesthetic and pumpkin spice lattes (something I have never tried but have heard all about…the nearest Starbucks is over an hour away so … yeah). Plus, all the Halloween pictures appearing  has got me in the mood for horror films. And, thus, I have arrived at the actual topic of my blog today.

I am doing a 31 Days of Horror challenge wherein I attempt to watch 31 horror films this month. I jumped in a little late, starting on the 3rd so watched 3 horrors in a row.

Krampus (2015) which now ties with Gremlins and Die Hard for best Christmas film ever. The Chernobyl Diaries which was terrible but it counts and then I re-watched From Dusk Til Dawn which totally counts cause vampires…Then, on the 4th, I watched Rogue which is about a giant crocodile and stars Radha Mitchell,  Sam Worthington and Mia Wasikowska. Pure and unashamed cheese.

I love horror films. Always have. Especially the slashers of the late 70s and 80s.

If you want to join me jump in and tweet me @inkblotsquills with film recommendations or let me know what you’ve been watching.

I also decided to start bullet journaling last night. This came about after I did some tidying and found no less than 15 unused notebooks/journals in my craft room. I have a problem…

Anyway, I will add some pictures once I get it fully underway.

I also started a teacher focused tumblr if you wanted to check it out. The Caffeinated Teacher. I will probably use that to do more teacher posts and turn this blog back into just a blog about me and the nerdy stuff I like. (Though teaching is a huge part of my life so there will be ideas and thoughts etc… but less of the technical stuff and more of the real stuff…)

So there you go. An update. A not so great update but an update none-the-less.

If you have any suggestions for what you’d like me to watch let me know.

Also, if there is anything you’d like me to write about, well leave a comment. Let’s do this.

Peace and Pancakes

Jaime

 

My gallbladder tried to kill me…

I have the best excuse for not updating…

Previously I wrote about my hospital stay here. This was back in April and I was popped on the waiting list for an elective laparoscopic cholecystectomy which was supposed to be done in May …

Fast forward to the end of May where I found myself back in hospital. The doctor who would have done my surgery was going to be away but said that the surgery would definitely be a go for the 9th of June. So, I was in hospital until the Saturday and then I was off until the surgery.

Laparoscopic surgery is the easier option and a lot less invasive where, at most, you’ll have to take a week off work and take it easy for a wee while. Four incisions are made and the gallbladder and stones are whipped out. There is a 1-10% chance that during this surgery they may have to go to an open cholecystectomy – meaning they have to cut you open.

Guess what happened…

So I wake from what was supposed to be routine surgery to find out that they had barely started the laparoscopic surgery when I started to bleed and they had to go straight into the open surgery…apparently my gallbladder had begun to go gangrenous and, according to my nurses and surgeon (who were brilliant btw) it was the most stones that they had removed from a gallbladder. One of the stones was also stuck in one of the ducts…according to people I’m bloody lucky to be alive. Of course, when I woke up, I began to apologise profusely to the nurse for causing any trouble. I apologised for the fact that my gallbladder had tried to kill me…

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I managed to lose a lot of blood but, luckily, didn’t need a transfusion though it was close. I’ve been off work for two weeks and start back on Monday but can only work half days. The doctor and nurses originally recommended taking three days off but I need to build up my strength because I’m still going to America in a couple of weeks. (I’ve been cleared to fly so there is no worry there. It will be four weeks after surgery that I fly so I’m good.)

Anyway, I just thought I’d do a quick update. I’m doing really well though I’m too bloody stubborn for my own good. I have overdone it a couple of times and given myself a fright but I am feeling so much better than I have in a long time. The professionals believe that I’d been growing those stones for some time which could explain my general ill health and lethargic nature more readily than stress. It might also explain several other things, health wise, that had been getting me down for at least the last year or so.

I’m tender and have a 22cm scar from the middle of my chest to my lower side but I’m no longer attached to Bert the Bile Duct Drain (check my instagram for more images). I have trouble getting comfortable but, like everyone keeps reminding me, it’s barely been two weeks since surgery.

So that’s why it’s been a little quiet on the blogging front…

Peace and pancakes,

Jaime

P.S. This is surgery number 19 if anyone is keeping score…

 

What the heck happened…?

So I was going to regularly update this blog but, unfortunately, my gallbladder had other ideas.

On Good Friday, when I had a glorious long weekend spread out in front of me, a mysterious pain started in. At the time I thought it was just indigestion but the pain steadily worsened until I decided that I should probably get it checked out. I drive myself to the ED (Emergency Department) and wait to see the on call doctor.

By this time I’m having chest pains and lower back pains and I’m feeling bouts of nausea – so a great way to spend my Monday off. (Yes I’d had the pain for nearly four days before going to check it out…I’m strange like that…)

The doctor looks at me and takes some vitals and suggests gallstones which means I have to go back to ED and get semi admitted so they can administer pain relief that’s a little stronger than panadol. I get a few needles shoved in and then get some blood taken followed by tramadol and buscapan (excuse spelling…) plus a tonne of paracetamol and ibuprofen. Then I get sent home and told to keep on a low fat diet. (Which is fun considering I’m also gluten free due to IBS … all the stomach problems.)

I am told to make an appointment with my regular doctor to get a surgical appointment as well.

Tuesday is also a day off for teachers due to where Easter fell so I’m resting (or trying to because the pain hasn’t gotten any better) when I get the call to go for an ultrasound which also means that I’m not allowed to eat for a few hours.

The ultrasound confirms gallstones and I have to go back to ED (though I’m not sure why) where I get given a prescription for a range of painkillers on top of the range I already have and am told just to manage it until I can see my doctor. By this time it’s five in the afternoon and I haven’t been able to eat since nine that morning. I’m tired, cranky, in pain and a little scared because the pain hasn’t gotten better, in fact, it’s gotten steadily worse.

I call in my relief for Wednesday because I know I won’t be able to function at school like this and manage to get an appointment almost first thing on Wednesday morning. By this time the pain really hasn’t subsided and I’m unable to get comfortable but I also don’t want to bother people. My doctor (who is freaking amazing by the way!) takes one look and basically sends off for a surgical referral and then tells me to ignore the second prescription and gives me one to help with the nausea I get with tramadol and send me home. She does tell me if I feel worse to go straight back to the ED.

Cue ten o’clock on the Wednesday night where I’ve tried to go to bed. The pain is really bad and I take my dose of tramadol and the anti nausea. It is over an hour later that I realise I’ve been crying for at least half that time. I can’t lie down and I can’t sit up so I start pacing and focusing on my breathing. I also decide to take some ibuprofen and paracetamol as well.

Cue 1.45am and I am still in pain and still crying. I realise that this isn’t right and I drive myself to the ED. (I could have woken my border but didn’t want to disturb her.) Mind you I’m crying the entire way because I’m in pain and I’m angry at myself for being in pain.

I get into the ED and I am crying and apologising for being a pain and disturbing them in the middle of the night. (I know…I’m a numpty). They admit me straight away and then have to deal with an emergency before being able to get me some concentrated pain relief. Then I was admitted to the surgical ward.

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Me wasting time in cupcakes pjs and doodling

Basically I spend the next couple of days in hospital on saline and IV antibiotics. Then released. I’m still in a little bit of pain but no where near as bad as it was on the Wednesday/Thursday.

I then go back to school for the final two weeks before the April break though I kinda rushed it and ended up having to drive home early for a few days.

That happened almost a month ago and now I am waiting for the surgery date so they can remove my gallbladder. I had the appointment with the anaesthetist and will hear about the surgery very shortly. Needless to say I haven’t felt like blogging for some time due to feeling incredibly exhausted.

Now my only worry is if the surgery is in the first week back at school because I really hate writing relief…(in reality I hate missing school because I really enjoy my job…and the students I have a funny, and strange, a weird, and kind, and just great humans who are still trying to recognise their potential.)

This comic is a happy thing for me Gallbladder’s last day.

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Me trying my first coffee in a month … it didn’t go down well…