Today I learned that Carrie Fisher died – that strong, sassy, quick witted and freaking talented inspiration from my childhood that I grew to admire more for her openness about her personal struggles. That woman who showed me that I can be a kick ass human being regardless of gender. That woman who reminded us of the ageism and sexism problem that infiltrates our lives through the screen and the woman who constantly spoke her mind. There are few celebrities who have passed and left a strange void in my heart and Carrie Fisher is definitely one of them. She is one with the force and the force is with her.

I posted this on my tumblr earlier and thought it fitting to post here. I admired Carrie Fisher greatly. She was my first science fiction heroine inspiration. For the longest time I was obsessed with being Princess Leia. It was a name that I always used when I was playing make believe as a kid. (That and Ariel and Belle – I would alternate.) I even grew my hair as long as possible so I could wear it like she does in Return of the Jedi. Unfortunately, long hair is difficult to manage so, eventually, that hair was cut off.

As I grew older I grew to realise the significant impact that she’d had on my life. Fiercely independent, headstrong and not willing to take the crap that society handed her lying down. This inspired me. It inspires me…reminding me that, like her, I am so much more.

As I became more well read, educated, and articulate I came to see how important she was in framing a lot of my critical thinking around women in science fiction and women in film. She was a Princess but she was more than that.

There are many things that I want to say about this woman and the impact she has had on so many people. How she talked openly about mental illness, addiction, ageism, sexism and so much more…How she could laugh at herself and be so brutally honest…but the world knows how important she was (is).

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She is Princess Leia, Leia the Huttslayer, General Organa. She is an actor, a writer, a comedian, a powerhouse…she is brilliant, beautiful, talented and an inspiration…and she will be missed by so many.

My thoughts go out to her family at this time.

May the force be with you, General Organa.

 

Things I Learned Yesterday…

I have a bucket list. In fact, I have several bucket lists scattered around on bits of papers and in half written journals. Doesn’t everyone?

For the longest time my bucket list was pretty average. Go travelling, write a novel (I’m working on it) learn how to do a handstand (still working on that one as well) and fall in love (how freaking cliched…right? ahem … right? Still haven’t fallen in love so…). From all accounts it looked like my bucket list was just a random list of ideas…but, this weekend, I knocked something off my bucket list.

I did an adventure race.

I’m a relatively active person but not to the levels that I could or should be. There are always excuses. But, when one of my dearest friends invited me to join her family as part of their team my first instinct was…no I’m not ready. But, I thought it over and said yes…

So, yesterday, I sports bra-ed and suited up. (Two bras if you were wondering… and yes, it was painful but I didn’t want to give myself a black eye…) I gave it my best shot. My friend and her family were much fitter than I but they put up with me. Plus, I remembered why I slowed down on my running…my knees.

But, I had a lot of fun. It was mostly up hill and there were times when I was crawling up the hill as it was rather steep. I nearly lost my shoes in the mud run and the down hill made my knees swell but I’d do it again. (Not right now…I’m currently resting my knee…a little bit…) But it was a lot of fun. And, even though we weren’t the first, we weren’t the last. I would actually recommend this to any body who likes a challenge. It was a lot harder than I expected and my friend said it was harder than last year but I had a lot of fun doing it.

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Goodbye Dear Shoes

I learned a lot from this race and one is that I need to take more time for my own health and fitness if I want to get better. (Better at running and at being a healthier person.) I don’t often admit that I struggle with self esteem and my weight because I really love the body positivity movement and advocate it. Healthy at any size! But I also like being fit and running and dancing…so here’s to taking more time for my own health.

Also, my bucket list will always been changing but I can cross that one thing off. Next on the list – I need to finish my second novel and edit my first one more.

And maybe, just maybe, it’s time for me to be more creative with my bucket list. Or, maybe it’s time for me to do more…

What’s on your bucket list? What should I add to mine?