Currently Thursday 9th April

So we are now two weeks into our lockdown…keeping in our bubbles. Which means I have been talking to my cat as if he were a real person. It also means that I have been dancing around my house and re-enacting film scenes with said cat…which, let’s face it, isn’t that different from what I’d be doing on a normal weekend.

I’m not going to lie though. It has been a weird couple of weeks. I go from being productive and feeling fine to suddenly being overwhelmed by everything. I really agree with what we are doing – especially since my mum is down to her last two rounds of radiation before she has to go in for surgery. Yet, I still find this whole thing so surreal and sometimes quite terrifying. I hope you are all staying safe and well!

(more…)

Be Kind – It's a Confusing Time

Note: I am not an expert nor a professional. I have linked to some places that might help you sift through some of the information that is being spread around. Also, most of these sites will be New Zealand focused as that where I live.

I, like so many other people at this time, am feeling overwhelmed with everything that is happening in our world at the moment. Every few seconds I find myself mindlessly scrolling through Facebook in an attempt to figure out what is going on and it is starting to make me feel more anxious than usual. Covid 19 has started to become a scary term creeping closer and closer.

(more…)

The “B” word… (busy)

Last year I realised (and was told several times) that I was always busy. Every time someone asked how I was going I was quick to respond with busy – but I realised that busy, for me, was synonymous with stressed. I found that was I was doing a lot stuff that was really not productive. Instead, it was box ticking in order to prove that I was valuable and “doing my part” or whatever that is supposed to mean. Basically, I was getting stuff done but it wasn’t the important stuff. The stuff that I wanted to get done versus the stuff I needed to do.

(more…)

I Created A Bookstagram…

I am a reader. I’ve always been a reader. Yet, since I have become a teacher I feel that I haven’t been reading for pleasure as much as I used to. Sure, I read heaps of essays and educational related material but I don’t always read simply for the joy of finding new friends in their own adventures.

For the last few years I have set myself a goal on Goodreads.com. Last year I read 35 books and this year I have set myself the goal for 50. (Secretly, I am hoping that I will read more than this…) And I’m excited to see how many books I manage to get through.

(more…)

Small Changes Mini Goals

Change is scary. No matter how much I pretend that change is easy it really isn’t. There is a a heavy aspect of fear that hovers around change. Most of this fear revolves around how others view you and how you think you are viewed by others. It’s complicated. But change is important for many reasons.

After reading Elsie Larsen’s post How I Changed My Life on A Beautiful Mess I decided to start following a similar plan, though I’m not as organised yet. Maybe that’s my next step.

(more…)

Writing and motivation

It may surprise some people to realise that I am an expert procrastinator. What I mean is that I avoid doing many of the things that I want to do due to any number of reasons. Things such as keeping up to date with my blogging, reading, writing, and numerous other activities. And, yes, teaching does take up a significant amount of time but I use it as an excuse as well.

(more…)

The One Where I Try to Be Productive

It’s the school holidays – the summer break – which means I have nearly a whole six weeks to do so many things. Of course, one of my main priorities is relaxing and taking some time for myself as teaching is rather draining. But, as my friends have reminded me time and time again – I’m not good at relaxing. Call me an active relaxer. Why am I this way? Who knows – it could be due to my anxiety which is tied in with my A type personality which is tied with the desire to be productive. It’s a knot of Gordian proportions. 

(more…)

Words and Art

I struggle to make time for the things I truly enjoy. Aside from travelling overseas to San Diego for Comic Con, I often find myself making excuses for avoiding activities that I used to really enjoy. Two activities that fall into this category are:

| Reading

| Art

These are two things that I used to pursue on a daily basis. I would gobble up literature and go through reams of paper drawing and doodling. Now, unless I force myself to sit down and read or draw, I don’t do anywhere near the amount I used to.

(more…)